On my mind...

1. I was hoping my super productive Thursday would lead to a baby. Sadly, it only resulted in a serious sleep coma yesterday. I didn't get out of bed until 12:30 and didn't start functioning like a normal human being until late afternoon. Waste of a day.

2. I just commented on Alicia's blog how rolling over at night totally sucks, and then last night, I was rolling over like a pro. Out of nowhere I've suddenly began to maneuver my massive body more easily. I am adapting. Does this mean I will be pregnant forever?!

3. The little baby countdown on my blog reminds me that I have 5 days left. 5 DAYS! I remember when I got excited about being in the double digits. Last night each time I got up to pee in my delirious state I kept thinking, soon I will be getting up to feed a baby...and I will be up much longer than 1 minute at a time. The thought is scary yet exciting.

4. I'm getting very worried about how little sleep I'll get once Isla arrives. I'm also starting to worry about going back to work after 6 weeks. I'm happy Isla will be home with Andy, but I'm seriously jealous about it at the same time. I'm supposed to be the stay at home mom! Andy is supposed to wear a suit and go to the office every day! What happened?!

5. How am I going to lose 60lbs (50lbs is baby weight, 10lbs is what I've gained since 2004), spend time with Isla, plan lessons, go to work everyday, and not feel like I'm dying or going crazy?? I'm now questioning if there are enough hours in the day. I'm not sure how people find balance in their lives after having a baby, but I hope I find it sooner than later. I'm freaking out.

6. Since busting out my scrafting stuff last week, I've finished roughly 15 pages. I'm too lazy to go downstairs and count, but trust me, it's huge progress! I've been throwing away unbelievable amounts of pictures though, which really sucks. I wonder how much money I have wasted printing millions of pictures that I will never use. I'm getting really bored with my lack of creativity, but at this point, I just want those pictures in a book! I figure once (if!) I get caught up, I can put a little more effort into my books because I won't feel so rushed.

7. How do people find time to scraft, or do any sort of hobby, with a baby at home?! Not even just a baby, with a toddler or small child?! Man, panicking once again.

8. I think the worst part of being pregnant is the waiting. Some people like the excitement and surprise, I feel like a ticking time bomb. When will contractions start?! Will my water break first?! The thought of suddenly going into labor is scary! Some people start labor gradually, but since I've been having Braxton Hicks contractions pretty regularly for almost 2 months now, and lots of cramping for a month, I probably wouldn't realize if my labor started slowly. I'm used to being uncomfortable and in pain throughout the day.

9. I hear Torii snoring in bed. I think I'll go crawl back in there for a while. I'd be kidding myself if I thought I could stay awake all day after getting up this early. I'd rather sleep now than have to nap later.