Changing my ways.

I am a lazy person. Really, really lazy. I hate that I am so damn lazy...stupid freshman year of college...all I did was sleep instead of get involved with clubs or go to parties. Really, looking back on it, drinking and partying would have been MUCH more beneficial than all the sleeping I did, because now I am stuck with a really bad habit.

Sophomore through senior year of high school I was crazy productive....I was a never napper. I considered naps a huge waste of time (amazing huh!?) Sophomore year I was totally involved in school...I was in the most random club, International Club (hilarious considering I don't like to travel or have any interest in other countries), I was on the track team, and I took dance classes. I also babysat quite frequently on the weekends which kept me pretty busy. Amazingly, I never missed a single day of school that year.

Junior year I didn't do as much. I quit track and dance lessons in exchange for a fabulous social life. I finally had really good friends, something I had never had before, so I spent as much time with them as humanly possible. Hanging out with my friends consumed just as much time as track and dance did, so I was still busy, just in a different way.

Senior year was by far my busiest year. I was on Poms which had a hugely long season....September through March, I was involved in church...I went to youth group every Wednesday and church almost every Sunday morning and often evening as well, I also took a dance class and still managed to go out with my friends every weekend.

I LOVED being busy. The thought of a day with nothing planned would scare me. I seriously hardly even watched TV back then. I would get so bored just sitting on the couch, I felt like I was totally wasting my time....isn't that amazing?! How did I become this nap loving, tv obsessed, I don't feel like working today, lazy mother F-ing person?!

Slowly but surely I am remembering why I enjoy being busy. Even though I said I wouldn't, I have been up between 5:15 and 6 am every day this week whether I had a job lined up or not. (Granted I would go back to bed for a while if I wasn't working, but at least I got up and showered.) I really find that I am much more productive when I'm busy. If I have no set plans for the day, I will put off little things like laundry or grocery shopping because I have all day...and then of course I get lazy, wait til the last minute, and run out of time to do everything I planned. When I have a full day I actually have to schedule time in for chores and errands, making me a much more efficient person.

So now I am really trying to stay busy, watch less tv, and take fewer naps (don't laugh, I really am). I know I'll never stop loving naps, but I can't be perfect :) I just need to develop a routine and stick with it, as hard as that is to do. I was able to get up at 5:30 am for high school every day, so I'm not sure why I have had such a hard time doing that now...but I'm sure it will get easier as time goes on. I took my first morning sub call today so that is progress right there!

It feels good to be productive and accomplish so much in one day! Now the tricky part is remembering that at 5:15 in the morning when the alarm goes off and I'm all warm and cozy in bed....