Friends

I have so many good memories in this house, I love being home...but lately I've been kind of sad here. Walking into this house almost instantly brings me back to my high school years. (Well, more specifically junior and senior year because we didn't move here until 1997.) I have so many memories of my friends and I....getting ready for school dances in my bedroom, my Christmas party, graduation party, making terrible "music videos", watching movies on the couch with my boyfriends or boys I had huge crushes on... I get most sad at night however when I'm in bed. I am seriously not used to sleeping in that room alone. All throughout high school I had so many sleepovers with my girlfriends, and then into college my boyfriend at the time, Jim, was usually over every night. I guess laying there alone reminds me of how many friends I have lost over years.

It is mostly my fault, after high school I didn't put enough effort into staying in touch with my friends. I was more concerned with spending time with Jim and making friends in Winona. I seriously lost so many friends because I didn't realize how important they were to me. I gave up too easily when I was frustrated with my friends...it was easier for me to stop talking to them rather than confronting them and addressing our problems.

Over the last year I have made an effort to contact almost all of my old friends (well the ones that forsure don't hate me) but nothing really comes from it. I'm not looking for all of my friendships to go right back to the way they were, but I would like to keep in touch with my friends and maintain some sort of friendship.

I had so much fun in high school and I had so many great friends who helped me become a better person and made my life so much happier. I mean my goodness, if it wasn't for Maja befriending me and introducing me to her friends, I have no idea where I'd be today. I'd probably still be wearing Mickey Mouse sweatshirts and sporting my terrible bangs.

I wish there was something I could do to get all of my old friends back, but I know that would be silly considering I'm sure we've all changed so much. I guess now I need to just focus on my current friendships and make sure that no matter how far apart we live, or how mad or annoyed we may get with each other, I remember that friends are precious, and a life without fabulous friends would just not be worth living!